May 14th, 2007

Coming out of Exhaustion Land

I tell you – the first trimester this time around was SOOOOO super tiring. I’m sure I wasn’t this exhausted with my previous pregnancies. Otherwise it wasn’t too bad – some nausea but no actually throwing up and I was pretty hungry most of the time so I gained like 7 lbs already – yuck! Still, I’m glad to be heading into the second tri now and I hope I have more energy so I can really enjoy my summer!

Work has been keeping me busy too, so it’s been hard to find time to blog – I’m going to have to do better though. I really want to have clearer memories of this pregnancy, especially if it turns out to be my last, as I suspect (although DH would still happily have a fourth baby in a year or two).

Yesterday was mother’s day and I have to say mother’s day feels so nice – my boys each did something special for me at daycare last week and then we went to a nice brunch with DH’s family yesterday. It was a good day for reflecting on how thankful I am for the boys and this baby who is growing ever so quickly inside of me. I’ve been more ambivalent about the pregnancy than I would have expected – some days I am just so fearful of how life will be with three children and if I’ll be able to succeed at a home business so I don’t have to go back to work (and so I can still feel self-sufficient, since I may stay home for a couple years regardless of if I work at home during that time or not). But now I know I need to start concentrating on enjoying this pregnancy and looking forward to another lovely baby. I’m sure it will all work out somehow!

Tomorrow is my second prenatal appt (hopefully without kiddos!) and I’m really looking foward to hearing the baby’s heartbeat. I feel pretty confident that the pregnancy is healthy but I will feel so much better when I hear a nice thumping reassurance on the doppler. Wish me luck!